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Thursday, July 28, 2005

cik su saw me watching Saiyuki Reload. And now, he's in de line to borrow Saiyuki Reload from me. Muaahahah!!!

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i don't know what title to put on today. but my day yesterdae was a blast. yup! a total blast. I stayed cool at work. looking good with the nu U2 shirt i bought and I was cold, so i had de collar up, and me wearing that one piece ear-ring, i look good. ooh! I'm vain. tj loves it. well, he's my somehow kinda a stylist advisor. haha!!
Ate mostly onli bread at work. I bought bread and jennifer bought bread too. But I bought a bigger amount of it and so, finish jennifer's and continued mine. Haha!!

After work, me, Mike and tj went off for dinner. tj suggested Breeks and I said okay! cuz i could eat steak! But when we got nearer to Breeks, tj suggester another place, Seoul Garden. I said no immediately cuz I was wearing white! A whole lot of white. But I agreed to it cz it means, more food to eat! Haha!! And so, we went in to Seoul Garden. Had dinner, and talk for a whole long of 3 hours. Yup, we were in there for the whole lot of 3 hours. It was de 1st time for tj to stayed at a barbecue buffet place for more than an hour and for me, it's a 1st time to stay for more than 2 hours. My goodness. But we had a whole lot of fun, telling each other stories about tv shows and work. Yup! work work work. A whole lot of stories.

While going home, yammie smsed and told me the news. Grandma was in de hospital. Wondering to go there or not, I tried to call mom but there was no reply. Good thing she called me. I was feeling kinda helpless to take the train home and I was alreadi at the taxi queue. So, I thook the taxi and off to the hospital. And there, mom was with grandma while she was being check-up. I went to see grandma. Seeing her in that situation is so different that I quickly went out of the A&E and called tj. I cried at that moment. I just couldnt help it. Seeing her in that situation is just so different. I overcomed after tj talked to me. Few minutes later, Bik As and family came. Than, cik Ahmad and wife came. Than Cik Su came. And later, grandma was sent to her ward after de x-ray.

We followed her to the ward and there were these 2 police guys looking over a guy and I can tell that 1 is chinese and 1 is malay. And that malay one kept on looking at me ad i feel so tired and sleepy and still hearing the other patients crying out and my uncles making stupid jokes and me laughing all de way and plus listening to some of de needs to be done at that room and being a messenger to yammie and Cik Jas & Cik Ju, I want hit that malay police guy and kick his dick and make sure he just stay in one corner and cry.

Came back like 0100+hrs and didnt shower immediately but sat down with yammie and watched the CSI finale. It was scary. By the time it finishes, it was like 0300hrs. I showered and off to sleep. I wke up to go work but decided not to. My stomach was feeling not good and I was realli tired. I messaged my 2 storekeepers and tj and stayed home. but still am going for Maths later.

Saiyuki Reload episode 1 - 8 is done. yeah! Yammie forgot to start the downloading yesterdae so I got 3 more files still downloading. hehe....!!

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Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Pathetically

xi'll be gone if they are notx

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Monday, July 25, 2005
In need

I woke earli. Nyai was awoke before me but still laid in bed. Until she heard my rooster cockle-doodle-doou-ing . Haha. I guess she laughed too. I woke up once I heard that. Took my towel, checked on my animes whether they're downloaded or not. Started downloading on Saiyuki Reload and Saiyuki Reload Gunlock now.

I was back home in time to catch Incredible Tales. It was a nice story. It wasnt scary as how it was shown on the trailer. But it was a good one. I didnt miss it. muaahaha!!! best! When I got at de door, mom quickly pointed out to me and faster to get in so that I can watch it. haha!!

I need dvd-rs asap! Maybe this wednesday, after work, straight down go to Sim Lim or something.

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Sunday, July 24, 2005
madness//again?

it's madness. it's crazy. i can't stop. it's ridiculous. i was hungry this morning. so, i went down to get rojak mama and maggi goreng and shasha and sufy were like in awe and fascinated. their reaction was like so funni that i cant help being more craziness.

tuition was cool. oh yeah. it was cool alright. with those live sea urchins being eaten alive in front of us and seeing those small abalones being cook and de rice cooked in abalone stocks. oh boy! and seeing that fat guy eating the hairy crab. tell me! I WAS FULL!

came back, watched Inuyasha but I was so sleepy. I went to sleep. Had a nap and when i woke up, mom and nyai were still not up yet. Wonder where they go? Where they went? Where were they? They actualli went out together le! didnt know le! i'm so surprised!

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scott the mooffat

muaahaha. finalli, i made a white background layout. long time have not had it. finalli i did it without any hassles hustles. muaaahaha

my day was okay. bought 2 t-shirts from U2. great singapore sale still on but i feel i've missed out something. dn knw what it is. went to the anime house and the one whole set of Saiyuki Reload is not in stock, so, gotta wait for the next shipment. !haiz. but it was a great trip there. hehe. Had Nasi Goreng Belacan there. Might go there again and try the food again. And that place, Sunshine Plaza was near to Burlington Square and now I know where Burlington is in Singapore.

muaahaha

saw some tourist having durians while we were going to bugis. looks yummy. realli yummy. they were having a good time. hmm. they are.

what else I want to say? 0324hrs in de morning aLreadi. better go sLeep. ~haiz

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Saturday, July 23, 2005
..good morning

somehow, i miss hearing that china man saying "good morning" on perfect 10. sigh. why do they have to change their schedules till so damn fucking idiotics!

anyway, kept waking up every hour since 0700hrs this morning. Than, finally got up at 1000hrs. wash me face, brush my teeth, do the laundry. on de 2nd round now. had my breakfast and later, want to go out than shower.

watched Bleach and Gundam Seed Destiny. Hehe...!!! Had them downloaded last night. It was a fast release. Or maybe, I was too eager.

the sun was shining so brightly almost half an hour ago but now it's like dark. not so dark, but dark. no sunshine. i dn want to say it but i hope it's not.

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Friday, July 22, 2005
Climbing The Walls

Close your eyes, make a wish , this could last forever, If only you could stay with me now, So tell me what it is, That keeps us from each other now, Yeah it's coming to get me, You're under my skin

No I can't let you go, You're a part of me now, Caught by the taste of your kiss, And I don't wanna know, The reason why I Can't stay forever like this, Now I'm climbing the walls cause I miss you

Take my hand, take my life, Just don't take forever, And let me feel your pain kept inside (oh yeah), There's gotta be a way, For you and I together now, Yeah it's coming to get me, You're under my skin

No I can't let you go, You're a part of me now, Caught by the taste of your kiss (ohh), And I don't wanna know, The reason why I Can't stay forever like this, Now I'm climbing the walls cause I miss you

It's an illusion, How can I feel this way?, If I can't have you, It's an illusion, Nothing is real this way, If I can't have you

No I can't let you go, You're a part of me now (now), Caught by the taste of your kiss (I don't wanna know), And I don't wanna know, The reason why I Can't stay forever like this (I'm climbing the walls), Now I'm climbing the walls cause I miss

Ohhhh, I can't let you go no

And I don't wanna know, The reason why I Can't stay forever like this (ohh ohh)
Now I'm climbing the walls cause I miss (I miss) you

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Thursday, July 21, 2005
Happenings

My little youngest cousin, Aqilah is actualli playing The Sims! My Goodness! She's like only 10 years old and she's playing The Sims. Oh boy! Happening sey!

I like the way I do my hair nowadays. Hehe... I need to redo the link to my site. It's not good enough. The color's too light. Can barely see. Aiyoh.

At work, it was like damn cold but after that, I was damn hot. My goodness.

This coming Monday, Incredible Tale I want to watch. About some malay ghost about 10 years ago. I wish I could watch it. Hmm, maybe i'll skip class on that day and faster come back home to watch it. Hehehe.... It looks scary but I want to watch it. Hehehe.

Okay, like half of my mp3 player is filled with My Chemical Romance. Hmph.

My mother is the only one who makes the most delicious curry ever! I have not tasted it for a very long time and today, I really can't resist and I just got to have it. It was nice. It was hot and spicy. I was pespiring while having it. It was.... BEST ar!

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Wednesday, July 20, 2005
yummie

i think im having like too much durians. althought it's limited but oh boy, they're nice... yammie! eh! wrong! muaahahahaha!!! i didt purposely type that but it realli happened. it's, yummy... hehehe

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bad..bad..gaL

i'm bad. ive been swearing vulgars alot these days. why? i don't know. the environment? the surroundings? isnt that de same as de environment? the ppl? isnt that included in the surroundings and environment? my feelings? the uncontrollable mouth of mine is so foul that it's needed to be re-rinse every 5 secs. In total, I could say I'm already fined for almost S$100. But, I guess it's only like $50 now.

I made someone unhappy today. I think I did. I guess so.

Work is like so much not so better.

Haha!!!

Had pizzas ordered from pizza hut for lunch. Boss wanted me to order it and paid with his credit card. Wah! haha!!! Paid by visa you know. Happening!

I'm totally like I don't know. TJ convinced me that I'm not down with any depression disorder. He says I'm always things to sensitive.

Me and Sebas are like disgustingly irritating each other right now. With both verbal and inverbal ways.

I feel like dying.

I miss you da.

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Monday, July 18, 2005
http://familydoctor.org/054.xml

that url is something that tells something about me. Thanks to dear Ling Fang. She founds that she's also having de same symptoms. Sigh. We're all in de same boat. Same to all others who are having de same thing. Sigh.

My day 2dae was okay. But I had a great dae. It was nice. He he.

The malay drama that mom's watching now is getting kinda, oh boy, getting on my nerves. It's one of those replayed drama and oh man, de plot is like too obvious and he actings are like so, oh! who am i to judge their actings. like as if I'm Yusof Haslam.

Anyway, can't wait for Friday. Payday. Want to buy lots of things le. hehe.

miss you da!

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cutie

Namie Amuro's new song is realli cute. Plus the video too. With those poms poms, pinky outfits. haha!! and pink panther dancing ard with his girlfriend. The song's cute too. "wo wo wa wa..." haha

i'll be off to work in few minutes. Sigh. Had a stomachache this morning. Thought I'm down with diarhea (urgh! i forgot the spelling). I lied down and feels like I'm okay so, I'm gonna be off to work. But, I still feel a little stomachache. Hope nothing happens at work later.
Was it something I ate yesterdae? Well, I washed everything well and cooked everything well. Hmm

Okay, this song is making me want to dance.

Many are online, how I wish I could use msn at work too. I just need a new pc system, that's all. Sickening. The company is strictly boring. both tj and sebas called. returned their calls and told them i'm gg over to work.

Uploaded my mp3 player alreadi. I'm kinda hungry right now. Don't know want to eat or not. Maybe eat abit of bread ar.

Oh, dad nak kemas ar....

oh, and, i need more quarter arm length cardigans....

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Saturday, July 16, 2005
laziness...crankiness

im feeling a little hangover right now. hangover? is that the word i should use? i dn knw. after dinner with tj, not even 2000hrs, i was alreadi feeling tired and sleepi.

right now, im feeling rather kinda restless. yup. i guess thats it. mom asked me y i didnt do de laundries and stuff. i've alreadi decided to do it tomorrow cz i dn feel like doing anything todae. i was so tired these days, even last week, i was sleeping earli and couldnt wake up earli the next dae. de past 3 days at least, i was forcing meself to wake up and not be late for work. and work, i'll get a little grumpy, cranky and hungry. but i was still okay. _okay, i'm kinda into My Chemical Romance right now. Thanks to the kids_.
2dae, woke up to a cold weather. went to the toilet to pee and than went back to sleep. continued sleeping eventhough the noisy constructions were still going on. it was realli, madness. woke up again in de afternoon. straight off to shower and i was still feeling tired and sleepi. had breakfast-cum-lunch, watched a naruto movie. had a lil bit of spaghetti yammie made and than, continue watching Bleach and than I was tired. I lied down on my bed, blast my hi-fi and read a book. felt tired and sleepi. tried to sleep but i cant. closed my eyes but i still cant sleep. Bloody Hell! a few construction ppl must be working overtime than they still worked. Well, talking about hardship.
There was no sunshine todae. But tj said the weather's hot. But sunshine was out onli for like 2-3 hours and than it was back to no sunshine and cold weather again.

I changed my layout to de one which fida dear made for me before. It's still my favourite. So nicey. Aww~

I think I wanna lie down and watch tv now. I want to watch my animes which I've downloaded earlier. The updateds of Naruto, Gundam Seed Destiny and Bleach but madness, my eyes still feels sleepy. But when I close them, I cant sleep.

Is it him? Am i Missing him?

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Friday, July 15, 2005
heLena

went to work as usual in de morn. was earli this morning. was feeling cranky. but oh boy.

da explained whole thing to me. i understood and we were back to normal. helped him clear his mailbox and even after i cleared my ears, i still need furth leaning, so, de eager and anticipated but poor tj, still bear with my unstillness and dug my ears to m8k sure they're clean. so that i can hear de questions for my malay listening compre exam later on. ha ha

let work, start raining. slept in de bus. so syiok. reached home, regret. why? got upgrading constructions gg on. boRing.

left for exam. was happy. waited for bus. bus came, wallet not found. bloody hell! went back, got my wallet, ran off to another bus-stop and quickly off to norhtbrook. same time, heavy major downpour starts. idiotik!
reached northbrook, major downpour still on and my jeans, feets, sandals all wet. late for 10mins, but exam still not commence yet.
thank goodness.
paper starts at 1700hrs. so, we listen to 2 songs, a news and another 1 last song. Helena by My Chemical Romance suddenly burst out of the radio. haha. once de song finish, exam starts.

Paper was okay., it was fine. i listened well. it was fine.

met da, went out wif him. helped him pick out a shirt and asked some questions at a shop which was alreadi closed. bloody hell him, dn knw how to ask earlier. went to absolute comics, a new set of 5 happy tree friends characters figurines were out. 1 character was Nutty. madness. i wnt it. bt onli available for $240 for a set of 5. tsktsktsk

walked ard, ate dinner, i was sleepi.... came back home, nw havent shower yet. idiot.

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Thursday, July 14, 2005
me @...

...work now. lazing around. im having headache due to taking off my specs. oh boy. i cant edit my alignment down here at work. why? cz the pc system suck big time.

i havent been doing anything much as little government is not here todae. i wonder if she'll be here tomorrow. she better be cz i'll be on half day tomorrow. y? i got malay listening comprehension exam gg on tomorrow. oh boy.

im feeling a little perk up 2dae. hmm. wonder why. i feel better working this way cz nobody is eyeing me. oh boy.

da look so cute todae. he actualli responded when i called him da. hehe...

need to reshape my eyebrow. need to have major toiletries shopping next week.

im like yawning since 3pm. oh boy!

miss my da

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Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Transferring....

While transferring files for tj and me into our portable hard disk and mp3 player, I went thru yammie's mp3s in her file and found some nice ones. Got them added into my playlist as well. tj wants me to fill up his 40gb of portable hard disk but what the hell, i'm like giving him most of my mp3s!

im fed-up with my hair. tj says to trim and style it alreadi. well, maybe not yet. cz im still considering. i wnt to dye and hi-lite my hair. thinking of rebonding but i dn knw. maybe yes, maybe no.

went over to shasha's on sunday. tuition was okay. IT WAS, OKAY. haha. Decided to go for sushi one day as she's alreadi working. Decided who to ask aLong and yeah, we've set a date. It's gonna be a buffet baby. Nicey. MadNess.

English class was funny yesterdae. I have nt attend it for a while but when I was there yesterdae, I was like, okay, still de same old thing happening and our composition was realli funny ar. I can't help laughing to myself while I was writing it. Others came to me asking how to write it but oh boy!

There are gonna be some changes at work. I hope all goes well.

am gonna be a little lonely at some times soon. hope everything will be oKay...

I need to do some print outs.... Sigh....

Miss you da

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Sunday, July 10, 2005
good morning ppl!

hehe look at the time. im suppose to be over at my cous's place. wonder if she's up alreadi. don't know la.

saw de trailer to hollywood's Dark Water. seems like it's a better copy than The Ring. I want to go watch it. I want to go watch Sin City too. Isit out yet?

I slept late but now, I can't wake up late too.

Whatever Wherever However Whenever... See ya!

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Saturday, July 09, 2005
de Coolest person....

in de world is..... ! I have 2 guys in my life who are known for their stern looks. And they also have those things which I find them familiar. They think thoughts straight. They prepare for the worse. They live life through everything good and bad. Who are they? TJ and my Dad. Yes. I love them both.

Anyway, didnt go out today. Really wanted to wake up late and I did. On purpose. I woke up like 8am. It was when de construction starts. I couldnt sleep until then but jz simply dozing off at times and I finally got up at 1pm. did the usual. had breakfast, cleaned my nails, watched Inuyasha and got a call from Shidah, wanted to ask Mom if she could send Aqilah over. Well, mom wasnt in a good state but since im around, it'll be okay to send aqilah over.
For awhile, i got a little fed-up over Aqilah for she keeps questioning on Inuyasha and what im doing and whatever. But I got through. Haha. I was jz feeling a little tired and heaty. My usual headache on de left side of my head kept on occuring. It's realli annoying.

Made dinner for mom. She couldnt sleep so, I'm gonna gve her de dose of medicine I've been taking to make myself sleep. Aqilah wanted to eat too, so got dinner for her too.

Been listening to Backstreet Boys's new songs and oh boy, some songs, they still sound de same but oh boy, the song Beautiful Woman, I LOIKE it!

I had my Malay oral exam yesterdae. I was the last 3rd person. it was horrible. It was a pain waiting. my fren, Liya was de 5th person. bt she still waited for me til de end. Omg! seems like we all are having the sam situation. It was terrible. I believe the 2 teachers which were invigilating us must be shaking their heads invisibly. Thinking, these private students here all can speak Malay but when ask to say out in exams, the words all stuck. Somehow, you could say it, but the words just don't come out. It's like in an interview, only that, it's in Bahasa Melayu. Oh boy.... We all blew it. I was shaking at work in de morning and cried before I got off cuz off scariness. TJ had to console me over the phone since he went out for lunch. He brought some durians for me and told me to have it to cheer meself up. I did, but I still cried. I was reali scared. as for Liya, she cried after she got through it.
After the exam, went back for awhile and went out to meet up with TJ. Wanted to talk to him abt what happened at exam but he didnt want to hear it. He didnt want me to say any single word about school. Saying, he don't me to make myself worry. I understand. I couldnt stop though and everytime I tried to say, he'll stop me.
And oh boy, he start doing the old thing. He kept on tickling me and poking me.... Urgh!

Aqilah now watchig The Incredibles and eating dinner. Oh! Gotta get some water for her!

Im listening to the Backstreet Boys. It's so nice.

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Wednesday, July 06, 2005
F4

nope. not vic or jerry or ken or vanness. but Fantastic 4. yup! i've caught it. it's an oKay movie. wanted to watch War Of The Worlds but not much interest in it and since TJ was all keen for Fantastic 4, we went for it. It's good. Okay. like X-Men ar. Not bad ar. Human Torch was a showing off blaster. The Thing was a poor thing. almost cried over his problem but I managed to hold on.
It was cold in the theatre but I got through.

oh man! i gotta dig my ears. itch itch itch.....

anyway, was like a massive shock at work. i was all busy when suddenly, i was all so damn free and i was so bored and damn tired.

got into a headache if im not wearing my glasses. vision became double and i'd see everything blurry.

whoa!

licky licky on me face 2dae... U'll get it SOON! da!

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Sunday, July 03, 2005
de pain

de weather was hot. de sun was burning de whole universe. i was lying in my bed, watching Inuyasha on vcd and i was in pain. my head, e left side, always ache whenever de weather gets too hot while de sun is burning hot.....

as evening comes and de sun downs, my stomach aches. .....it's here. de curse..... it smudges ans dirrty me.... and omg! im in PAIN!!!!!!!

mom asked this morning if wnt to cook pasta and i said as usual, "anything" and she's cooking it now.

yummy!

im hungry

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Sin

im like 95% recovery. i should be recovering soon. but i guess not. i have just did a bad thing. im not suppose to be doing.

.... i stood by de window and indulged myself with lots of durians that dad had peeled, peeled? erm... nevermind. it was nice. de weather is hot. de sun is shining brightly and anybody could just get a heat stroke and i am now sweating myself anf my flu is back 5%....

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Saturday, July 02, 2005
riiingg...ding ding mm bem bem....

it's crazy. i think im hook to that stupid crazy frog song. everytime i listen to de song, i want to see the music video and see that crazy frog swing his body side to side as he sings to his crazy tune and being chase by that robot.

day was okay today. yesterdae was like a total pissed off. well, i can understand de situation and that was why i was jut keeping my cool. 2dae, wanted to go to work earli but i didnt. went in at 1030hrs and went off at 1400hrs. had a nice dae with tj and had a nice and fulling dinner too. with these 2 sick ppl still whom alreadi recovered from their fever but still recovering from the flus, are in total mess.

anyway, anyway, anyway..... i had a nice dream. it was all weird but it was all too nice. when i woke up, i didnt feel worried for gg to work late or anything, but i was feeling all oh so nice. and feeling so nice and now de fan is on me, which means im gonna be cold and im gonna start coughing again....
anyway, abt my dream. yes yes yes.... i was at jay chou's concert. i was like far but yet so far. we were hanging onto a fence and hang there to see him perform. than, there was a paper aeroplane throws to him, he read it and he smiled. than, a boy, who was in front of me said that jay chou is gg to come up to me and sing to me and hug me. i was like in disbeliee and i told him it couldnt be me. he said, in de paper, my name was written, and he handed it to me and i saw it is my name. in a minute later, i got down the fence and jay chou appeared and i hugged him. i hugged him as tight as i could. he he he.... & suddenly, there was a change of environment. i was suddenly sitting within a small group of people. we were dressing either in black or dark red and it was a silent goup. on stage, there's jay chou and tj. they're battling over a game on PS2. they start battling, both fought hard and tj won! yes! but jay chou.... lost. he turns ino fire and explode. i was there looking at him aimlessly, tears fall from my eyes. it's sad. i know. de environment changed again. it was all peaceful. white curtains appears and it was blown by de soft wind. de sunlight came in to de verandah and there sits someone looking at me. he was in white and his smile was so sweet that it melts me heart. jay chou was there. he was looking at someone. and there i was, sitting by him, looking at him, smiling as i dress his wound on his leg. and than, it ends like de end of a movie.
and wt de hell, i woke up, seeing my own brown curtain blown by de wind and de sunlight comes in to my room and woke me up. i tried to sleep again but i couldnt. i stayed in my bed thinking of de dream before i finalli got up and showered and think of......

i miss my da

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