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Sunday, February 26, 2006
bagaikan puteri

finally, i've changed the living room curtains. washed them and hanged them to dry. continuing with the other washing to be done and will go on to yammie's curtains to wash. same cycle again. soak, wait, rinse, spin.

then, do what? read book again.... the story's getting all interesting again. suddenly story books on family, friends and romance are stirring me up. although i still love reading thrillers and stuffs. but, no scary ghost story books for me please. i love going to the library again. it's like old times back when i was in school and after school.

i wonder how the future is gonna be. i am hoping for a good one. for the best one which i realli dreamt of. as for work, tj is starting on a new one tomorrow. i hope he'll be doing fine. as for me, i'll be waiting. yes, i have a confirmation but i'm still doing my waitings.

waiting and waiting and waiting.
waiting for what also i don't know. how i wish money could just fall from the sky and then i no need to work.
hah! don't everybody wish that. all the time. every millisecond, every second, every minute, every hour.

okay, like whatever.

.......missing sayang so much

oh! de title of this blog is just something that has nothing to do with the blog and i'm just putting it for fun.

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BLA BLA BLA

good morning! good afternoon!... err.. good evening alreadi la! now wt time alreadi! 1621hrs already! anyway, I had an early night last night. Was really not feeling well. Right now, still feels tired le. How come ar?
I woke up like 1400hrs just now le. Actually no la, bt almost 1500hrs la. I think la. Alamak! Whatever la!

Nak tukar langsir living room to tak tertukar-tukar sey!

Eh! Like funny like that when I put malay words or sentences in my blog. Muahaha!!!
Tak faham sudah la! Go copy paste de words nd then go find online dictionary to translate the words! This one my blog, I put down any words I want.

Today Sunday sey. Basically, eversince I have not been working, everyday is like the same day for me. No weekend or weekday. All the same. sama-sama.
Bluekz!

I want to go read book ar!

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Saturday, February 25, 2006
simpLe & cLeaN

i'm feeling a little tired today. i dn knw why. i cant be feeling sick right? I jz got a good news and i dn wnt to be sick because i need to go thru de good news.

went for dinner with baby at newton circus which is still undergoing upgrading, which i totally forgot about it because i found de place a little different. bought another 2 pairs of ear-rings. yup! itchy me. baby spoilt one in de shop which we quickly ran out. well, actualli, i pulled him out.
still thinkiing wt to get baby for his birthday though. maybe i've found it la bt should i? hmm... oh well, wth. why not.

had a good chat with dad last night aftr his dinner. it was a rare moment of course. listening to his views and problems and all. telling him abt my baby and all, which in between, baby called. he felt asleep bt i told him to go back to slp since he'll be working de next day. and then, after he went to slp, me and yammie continued watching Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow and eating mee siam with hotdogs. yummy! grandma woke up to go toilet, she looked at us and just said something which didnt reali bothers us.

went to sleep after that. had another nice dream and saw something in my dream which was coincidental in reality. baby was realli cute 2dae. went down to le meridien shopping centre and harbourfront. bought meself a pair of skirt and pants and dad some t-shirts. bought MacD back for dinner.
Mom's cousin spotted us at Harbourfront's taxi stand, which later he quickly called us and put up the On Call sign up on his taxi. hehe!! He sent us back and it was free. Yeehehee!!!

Watched Pirates of Carribean: Curse of The Black Pearl. Aaah.... Who could more handsome and gorgeous and cuter if not for the duo, Johnny Depp and Orland Bloom... ["Sorry baby love! OnLy for 2daE"...]

I gotta KO now. I'm realli not feeling well. Oh boy... Goodnight ppl.
Goodnight, Sweet drmz, slp tight... Muackz

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Jessica Simpson's Wordz....

Sometimes it's hard when you're so deep inside
To see all you can lose in a blink of an eye
Dreams could be shattered
You could be gone
How would I survive
Cause you're where I belong
My soul-believer
Without you, I don't know who I would be

Underneath, I can feel you move through me
Inside out, you surround me
I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath
Oh, you're everything I know
So how could I let you go

Sometimes I listen to a voice that isn't mine
I disconnect from everything inside
And I have made choices
And wasted all the days
I could have been with you
Where my heart stayed
I know you've waited faithfully
Blessing our love even stronger

Underneath, I can feel you move through me
Inside out, you surround me
I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath
Oh, you're everything I know
So how could I let you go

And I've been blessed
For every kiss
For every breath
(How could I let you down)
And I've been touched,
By hands I trust
My love is risen

Underneath, I can feel you move through me
Inside out, you surround me
I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath
Oh, you're everything I know
So how could I let you
How could I let you go

-Underneath

I don't need your strength anymore
cause you've made me strong
You may not see the woman in me
That you dreamed of
Holding me in your arms

All the days that you gave
All the moments you've saved me,
Praying for my life
Sacrificed, just to make me who I am on my own
You don't have to let go

You don't say it
But it's in your eyes
All the fears of good-bye
But I can promise
You'll always have a place, and a way to my heart

All the days that you gave
All the moments you've saved me,
Praying for my life
Sacrificed, just to make me who I am on my own
You don't have to let go

I can live
Cause you lived for me
And I can love
Because you loved me.

All the days that you gave
All the moments you've saved me,
Praying for my life
Sacrificed, just to make me who I am on my own
You don't have to let go

(Ooh ooh ooh)
You don't have to let go

-You Don't Have To Let Go

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Friday, February 24, 2006
seasons

yess.... i have som much time in hand....

good morning people. i havent been updating for quite a while. actualli not so long la. but although i've been in front the pc most of the times these past few days, i've been lazy to update anything ar. muahaha!!!

anyway, my life is still struggling but am going and hoping to be a better one. i am looking forward eveyday to a new life and to a better life. everyday is an interesting day that which i must go through as i might miss something interesting out. So, i do not want to miss one out, especially those with my family, friends and my baby. My loving baby, Naruto44. Yup! Naruto44. He loves Naruto so much that I couldn't even stop him from watching it.

oh man! mom's turned on Star World and it's de 2nd repeat of American Idol. Oh man! I'm not gonna watch it again, right. No!!! I onli Chris Draughty's performance. He realli looks like Vin Diesel but tank god the voice's much better. I am sure he's gonna be in the finals. Yeah!

I'm hungry. But I don't feel like eating whatever is in the house right now. I feel just like having pattaya fried rice, strawberry roti pratas with whip cream, strawberry shortcakes, swensen's ice-cream... err, i forgot which one. the tall freckles one. it has cookies, choc chips, butterscotch ice-cream and chocolate ice-cream in random and with whip cream and a biscuit and cherry on top. YUMMY! and oh! not forgetting satay! I want to eat satay! I'm like craving alot of foods.

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Tuesday, February 21, 2006
boring tuesday... IT's ONLY TUESDAY!

so how's it gonna be? should i be confuse? have i thought abt it?? think things straight?

yess... i have. i have thought about it, and i am sticking to it. i am sticking to it and i would not let anything happen. by you, or me or by anybody else.

im crazy....

dad wanted to clean my room just now but i stopped him cuz I need to change de curtains and stuff, so i thought this time i'll clean my room on my own. i mean, i havent don that for so mne... err... better dn say la.
mom told me nt to throw away de lower part of de vegetables if im cooking them. i said okay. cz grandma caught me doing it and she told mom abt it and so, mom told me about it. bluek!

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Ashlee's Catch Me When I Fall

Is anybody out there, Does anybody see, That when the lights are off, something's killing meI know it seems like people care, Cause they're always around me, But when the day is done and everybody runs
Who will be the one to save me from myself, Who will be the one who's there, And not ashamed to see me crawl, Who's gonna catch me when I fall
When the show is over, And it's empty everywhere, It's hard to face going back alone, So I walk around the city, Anything, anything to clear my head, I've got nowhere to go nowhere but home
Who will be the one to save me from myself, Who will be the one who's there, And not ashamed to see me crawl, Who's gonna catch me when I fall
It may seem I have everything, But everything means nothing, When the ride that you've been on, That you're coming off, Leaves you feeling lost, Is anybody out there, Does anybody see, That sometimes loneliness is just a part of me
Who will be the one to save me from myself, Who will be the one who's there, And not ashamed to see me crawlWho's gonna catch me when I fall, Who's gonna catch me when I fall, Who's gonna catch me when I fall, And not ashamed to see me crawl, Who's gonna catch me when I fall

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Sunday, February 19, 2006
missing

oh wow! i can't sleep. sigh. wonder why. is it because i was nervous or because i drank coffee or because im excited or scared..... i want my baby with me.....

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Saturdays....to Sundays

It's like now everyday is Saturday for me. Well, yesterday, was watching tv like whole day. Now! Just when was the last time I ever did that? Hmm!? Oh well, I was overwhelmed by the traditions and dances happening in Bali and those masks came on and I was watching them, fascinating them. These morning, I woke up, sweating. I was having a nightmare. I was somehow in this house and there was this old lady making costumes but somehow I felt an eerie feelings. Then I was in bed and I was under the blanket but I felt that something was coming at me and I was trying to scream but I couldn't. My voice just couldn't come out and my voice suddenly became coarse and I was still struggling to shout out. Suddenly I felt like the thing is coming. My hands were waving around and by the time I felt something something, it was my gandmother. She woke me up. My voice came out. I was reliefed. I didnt go back to sleep. I got up and had a shower. I was still feeling shaky after that.

Baby called after that while I was dozing off after reading a book. After talking, dozed off again after reading the book again. Haha!! Was really tired man! Slept all the way til 4pm. Got up and had mee rebus. hehe!!

Watched The Corpse Bride. A really funny one. Dad borrowed from his friend. After that, watched a lousy stupid hindi movie but like I told yammie, I watched it for the sake of Fardeen Khan only. Muahaha!!!

My days were basically just staying at home and laze. Laze til I can't anymore. My handphone bill this month shot up tremendously. 4 times of last month's. Haha!! Baby expecting a booming one too. Haha!! Oh well, I know now and will keep down. Talked to baby on the phone and was mom was nagging at me to to use the home phone and so which we both switched to the home phone.

You know, I really have a lot of time in my hand that I feel like changing my layout again. I feel so bad. I am so bad. I want a white one again. But, oh boy!

Gonna be meeting new people again soon. Baby's last day and so, a little celebration gonna be going on and we'll be expecting some happening interrogations and once again, me the centre of attractions of the moment.

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Friday, February 17, 2006
hi-Lo

It's the 2nd day of not working day for me. Yes! It's a really weird feeling for me of not waking up early morning and getting ready for work and be almost or am late for work. It feels so different. I could sleep late and wake up late without anybody or should I say Mom, to nag at me every night to sleep early and waking me up all de time in the morning.
Right now, I woke up, go on the pc, ate breakfast and drink breakfast, heh!? drink breakfast? oKay, whatever shit! Then, do the laundries or something. ...oh no! i'm becoming lazy alright.
oh boy! oh boy! oh boy!

it's raining today! it's raining! it's dark! it's dark. oh man! aku memang mulut masin ar.

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Wednesday, February 15, 2006
sad_memoRaBLe-thouGht!z

yesterdae, i went off for a half day. went back, showered. changed, got ready but was stood up! for an hour! when baby showed up, i was touch. haha!! yes, it may sound cheesy. very cheesy but touching. a present of a bunny soft toy and it was holding a box of something. i opened it and it was nice. very nice that i became shaky and i was very happy. my 1st white gold. put it on straight away and yay! i got a bunny soft toy again! better and nicer than the old one! he he!!! I got a name for it. hehe!! it's a female alright.
my 1st valentine celebration. it was sweet. baby wanted to make a memorable one for me and indeed it was memorable. from de cock uo of plan A and going through plan B, it was all so sweet. i Love it. ~i love my baby....

2dae, it was my last day at work. i didnt do de standard thing of golden handshake or big hugs but just goofing and playing ard and still doing my work. burst into tears at time. i got kinda emotional even after de office hours. it was sad to leave that place. it was realli sad. i grew attached to that place. not the working place, not the company but the companions i had. all thse 5 and a half years i've been there was a great one. me and ken, both, left de place 2dae.... yes! and we both did. at de same time. that's me, mike (whom i had a crush on) and ken-ken!!!..me & ken had a matchin colow today as it's our last day. well, we didn't call each other to decide on wearing red together la bt just coincidence....
suppose to go down bugis starbucks as sebastian wanted to go there but didn't. 1st, me have too mne things to carry back and2nd, sebas was realli not feeling well that it's better we go another day.
that was the last of it. i've left that place now and tomorrow, is the start of a holiday. a short holiday onli b4 starting another one. and once the new job starts, i'll be starting a new life from scratch again....

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Sunday, February 12, 2006
Serious....

1st thing I'd like to say Ryan Donowho is cute. Ryan who? Any of you who watch The O.C. season 3 would know who's Ryan Donowho. He is cute!

And yes, I've changed my layout. That Britney one was a temporary. Hehe...

Okay, mom was sent to the hospital again yesterday and I didn't even know that she was being sent. I thought she was just going to the clinic. But NO! she went to the hospital and by night, she was home. It was nothing serious. She was fine. She is just having a stiff neck and something to do with the ear. The right ear I think. Gotta go check it out again. She'll be going for another check-up soon. Sigh. No use sighing.

Darling might be feeling bad right now as I'm totally not in a good mood since last night. I made a rash decision this morning. I went off to cut fringes. Yes. I did. Again with the fringes. I missed my old looks la. So, gotta get into it.

I'm hungry but I don't feel like eating at all. I'm just not feeling good right now. Had a little heat argument going with Bik As on msn. A little something about mom that leads to late grandpa. I'm in my temperamental mood right now so, I just blurt out everything. Yes! And they are the whole truth. No use keeping them so long cuz it might just cause you internal injuries.

I think I'm gonna heat up yesterday's noodles and eat la. Yammie still not up sey!

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Saturday, February 11, 2006
Clocks

Good morning people. Yesh! it is the earli morning of a Saturday. Everybody in my household are asleep except for me. Tried looking for a nice The O.C. image to make my layout but too lazy, so, I stick with an old fren of mine, Ms. Britney Spears. Or shall I say, Mrs. Federline? ....Okay, that just sound not right.

Yesterday was 10th February 2006. I got my O Levels result. I came to work half day and there was barely anything to do. So I just sat at my desk, waiting for the right time to run to TJ's office to use his internet to check on my result. Before that, idiotic boss came in and told us that at 1500hrs there will be a meeting at the conference oom with the Material Director. Her name's Jennie, you know. Okay, no big deal. I don't care anyway. I'm boasting right now, yes, I'm leaving the company for good.
Not yet 1430hrs, I went down to TJ cuz he bought the AA batts I needed. I went on to use his internet and went on the SEAB website and wa-lah! There were my results showing on the monitor screen. As promised, TJ was there with me to see the results. Called darling straight away to tell him my results, which after that, Sebastian came down and I told him my results too, and together, TJ and Sebastian start grumbling at me. TJ grumbled the most. I couldn't take it that I start to weep. Well, I feel bad too. I felt I've let TJ down especially. I know what I should do and I have planned ahead.
1500hrs, ran off to the conference room. Half way Sebstian called me. When I got in, they have not started yet as the projector system was screwing up. Lousy piece of shit!
As the meeting starts, I listened but at the same time, smsing with me sista, frenz, darling and cousin. After an hour and a half, followed OJ out of the conference room. Basically, 2 stupid departments were arguing out their problems for stupid reasons. *Stupid people in Stupid world* Lousy ME! .....Whatever....ar! OKay! ~!@#$%^
Teabreak with my store guys, a visit to the Ladies, off to 2nd floor again. Chit-chatted with TJ 'til it's almost 1730hrs. Went back up to my desk, clear up my stuffs, pack up and ciao! Off to meet my sweet darling.

Darling was wearing his glasses! He look like a good boy, you know. Muahaha!!! I love him so much. Went down to Al-Ameen where I met his big bro. "ABANG IPAR!!!! YOU ARE SO THE GOOD-LOOKING!". I shouldn't have call him that but while I was talking to darling earlier, I accidentally blurted out "abang ipar" and since he was late, I called him "Abang Ipar" all the way. Muahaha!!! ....I so the CUTE!

Anyway, look at the comparison people. Observe. Picture #1 (left), is my cousin and Me. Picture #2 (right), is my boyfriend and Me.

I think I heard something from yammie's room. Guess she's not asleep! That makes it! I'm not the only one in the household who is not asleep! Muahaha!!... oKay, I hig already. Need to sleep liao! Caleld darling to wake him up 1st....bLeurGH!

I found an old photo of mine, taken at Kulai 2 years back on the 1st day of hari raya.... I miss this hairstyle.....tsktsk :(

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Friday, February 10, 2006
old neo2

i got these from fida's site. I can't believe it. we all look so ccuuuttteee..... haha!!

we were all so innocent then.

just trying to look sweet.

de leftover psychos. sistas-kymmy & rach, me & fida!

me and fida in bLack!

this was on my bdae.

dt lipstick on me realli doesnt work and then, kymmy was fairer.

this is my fave neo2. i look good.

my sis commented something abt this. contradict? i thk dts it.

it was xmas time ar

okay! we were realli rawKiNg it!

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Monday, February 06, 2006
frenz4eVa

darling woke me up earli morning after i went through 2 alarms. muahaha!!! it was realli windy this morning and thanks to the boys being recall back to camps, thebus was full all de time. go out earli also still late.

later at work, after teabreak, i went off to see doctor along with tj. It has been a long time since really got together and had a great talk. after seeing the doctor and getting our MCs, we walked all the way down to amk mrt and i pulled him to walked me to the bus-stop. hehe!! he's realli nice. he's still de same old people. being just frenz with him, makes me talk more openly with him. Oh well, not like open last time la. But it was realli nice. Both of us also will have a really long vacation before starting a new job.

darling was worried sick hearing me sick. i told him it was nothing bad or what, it's jz normal small food poisoning. i went back, pissed, took my meds, ate my lunch which i onli 1/4 of it, went off for a nap. i had a 4hrs nap when mom eventually came into my room and told me she wanted celery juice and more celeries. okay lor, so i got up lor. darling called. waited for him before we go off to get my stuffs. de more i wait, de more menu i get from mom, so, once darling called i got out of de house and meet outside. oh yeah!
got de sandwich, got the celeries, and darling got a cake for his brother. it's a Strawberry Shortcake. it looks so nice. yummy!

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Post 5 random/weird stuff about yourself. List 5 fellow bloggers whom you want to do the same.Visit their blogs and tell them they've been tagged and ask them to read the rules in your blog.

Five weird/random stuffs you need to know bout me...

1. I have a fetish for guys butts.
2. I have a crooked spine.
3. I like playing reverse psychology.
4. I resigned without even finding a job 1st.
5. I like giving out lame jokes. (It's that weird?)

The next 5 peeps to continue the tradition are:
1) kak yam
2) shidah
3) fida
4) ling fang
5) sallyn

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juMp

had a good day 2day. i mean, yesterdae, on sunday. well, it's past midnight. i woke up like 0900hrs. i got up, washed my face, brushed my teeth, made breakfast, ate them as i watched yakitate!. later, update my site and than back to tv. while watching Honey, i felt hungry for lunch. So, i decided to have fried rice. And so I did. I made fried rice with zuchinis! yeah! has anybody put that in b4? No right? Well, maybe somewhere out there have la. Than, I thought, what the hell, cook some dish for dad to eat later.... Mom got up and she was making noise cuz she thought I didnt want to run errand for her. Like what the fuck! I was waiting for her!

It's nice to see her happy there.Well, I went out after that. Met out with bik as and got shidah to come along to surprise her and yes, she did. Played ard with clavonian? calovian? i dn knw! it's de electric piano! it was realli fun! i even thought i was gifted when i created a nice tune but i totally forgot about it! Muahaha!! Should hve recorded it! Oh MAN! After that, we were off to toa Payoh. bibik wanted to eat at Fork & Spoon foodcourt and so, we went. After that, we all were really really full. I ate not much of th yong tau foo but i was realli realli full! I was! OMG! like OMG!

Went into Courts after that. Bibik wanted a canopy bed and when I look at it, it's really nice and I want it too. Okay, maybe not now but when I'm getting married, I will have the canopy bed. We went around more to see more beds, sofas, wardrobes, washing machines, fridges, mp3 players and later, while walking back, we were stuck on looking at earrings. I got 2 pairs while bibik got a pair. Shidah dear hv no lobang. I mean ear lobes. We were stuck at another stall but we didnt get anything. Went back, took the full train, I got down Yishun while they both at Khatib. Went to Cold Storage to get stuffs mom asked to buy.

Came back, pissed. I was pissed off that I almost want to give up on her! I will eventually. But I don't know when! Will I? Will I? I don't know.. Oh man!
Darling dear called me. He was really sweet. I love him so much. We're missing each other so much.

Okay, my sister has just bun up my hair with the new clip I bought. Haha!! // Okay ar, Lee Ryan is making me melt right now. His songs are damn nice man! One song actualli sound so jazzy that it got me on the move. Okay la, sleep now. tomorrow working man! And & it's pouring out there now....

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Sunday, February 05, 2006
Gone // Laughs

Meeting up my darling. He's so cute. Coming here all the way to meet me 1st. It was raining and as we walked all the way to Northpoint, I was so smart to point out the we walk under the blocks for shelters. Haha!!! Got into Starbucks for coffee. Oh well, before that, it was his time with Miss Tobacco. Ms Tobacco is this species which he loves more than me and that would eventually would bring him down sooner or later. I have to give that a stop! Anyway, as we were on the way to Starbucks, I suggested we go to Angel's and maybe we could have some luck with some red packets. Haha!!!

After the coffee session, off we went to Angel's. They were having their cny dinner which makred 7 days of cny. We had no choice but to eat up. Out of courtesy, I finished up the raw tuna which kinda gives me a hard time after that. It was embarrassing but it was nice fish. bLuek! Waited for Angel to go off together but she had been stopped and so, darling and me went off 1st.

We sat down and had a long talk. Yup! Very the long which realli is scaring me. I was there, feeling scared and worried and getting more sick and hungry thinking about it all. But it was a nice feeling I was having there, being just with him. I love him so much....

missing you//muackz

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Gwen Stefani's : The Real Thing

I've seen your face a thousand times Have all your stories memorized I've kissed your lips a million ways But I still love to have you around

I've held you too many times to count I think I know you inside out And we're together most days But I still love to have you around

And you're the one I want and it's not just a phase And you're the one I trust, our love is the real thing

Don't go away My love (my love) I want you to stay In my life Don't go away My lover (my love) I'm happiest when we spend time

You're a salty water, ocean wave You knock me down, you kiss my face I know the storms will always come But I still love to have you around

Heavens knows what will come next So emotional, you're so complex A rollercoaster, built to crash But I still love to have you around

You're the one I want and it's not just a phase You're the one I trust, our love is the real thing

Don't go away My love (my love) I want you to stay In my life Don't go away My lover (my love) I'm happiest when we spend time (it's only you and I)

It's you there when I close my eyes And you in the morning I never thought you'd still be mine
Or I'd really need to have you around Don't go away My love (my love) I want you to stay In my life Don't go away My lover (my love) I need you, you're my love supply Don't go away My love (you're my love supply) I want you to stay In my life (every day, every night) Don't go away My lover (you're my love supply) I need you, you're my love supply

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Thursday, February 02, 2006
& so....

...it happened. I just couldn't time it. I just didn't know that it would be so fast but it happened. It's like another happiest day of my life once again and I'm loving it. I'm starting to have no worries but I feel like I need to say it out but it happened without me expecting it and it happened... & yes, this is de 1st.

Had dinner out wif new friends. yes. Was psychoed and had no other other choice but to join them at China Black. 1st time for me there. Got in early and was hoping to go off early and thank goodness I did but oh boy! another hung over baby. This time, I think I had a little too much. I mean, more like before. But I was still feeling oKay... yea baby!

couldnt sleep. onli managed 1 hour of sleep which i later woke up wif irritations in de eyes. I forgot to take out my contacts. Took it out, washed my face and feets, went back to sleep BUT! can't! for de next 2 hours I tried to sleep but I cant! So, i got up, showered, washed my hair, put on my clothes, ate breakfast and now drinking coffee. Oh boy! The pain is unbearable.

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